Today has been an emotional day at work. I met with the Boss, we discussed work, for the first time I spoke back to him, I walked out, I cried over the phone to NG, I wrote an email to the Big Boss saying that I wanted to see him about a personal matter. NG calmed me down. I sniffled but stopped crying. My office roomie looked alarmed.
I was calm and made an attempt at my never-ending list of work to complete before I leave on Saturday, got a call from the Other Boss, worked straight for 5 hours including pouring over contracts with a fine-toothed comb and meeting clients in Deutsche Bank, came back and was called into a meeting with the Big Boss.
Big Boss seemed to know immediately something was wrong. I tried to sound as professional as I could. I wanted to try different type of work, I said. He jumped on it, telling me he would have a word with the right guy and move me tomorrow, he made it so simple. I didn't have to explain anymore. He said he'd rather move me to a different team than have me leave the firm.
I had to see the Boss next. I didn't want to say anything then, just wanted to quietly move away. But what I didn't know was that between my email to the Big Boss in the morning and my second meeting with the Boss in the evening, the word had already spread: Office Roomie mentioned something was up when D asked her if I was ok, Big Boss barged into the Boss' room, asking if something in particular had happened, the Boss suddenly being super nice and offering to take some files away from me and lighten my workload. I blurted out that might be a good idea since I was going to move to another team. D and him did not look surprised. They already knew.
So there it is. I'm finally moving away from the Boss who had killed my drive to be a lawyer. Working with the Other Boss today made me feel like I wasn't a total moron bacause the Other Boss actually took the time to explain things to me. And as soon as he did, I knew how I needed to work. But I couldn't just work for the Other Boss because I'd still be on the same team as the Boss. D told me later he was proud of me and happy for me. I knew he knew where I was coming from. Afterall, he too had tendered his resignation about a month ago and was leaving for better places.
Hopefully, this is the right choice. I guess only time will tell.
I was calm and made an attempt at my never-ending list of work to complete before I leave on Saturday, got a call from the Other Boss, worked straight for 5 hours including pouring over contracts with a fine-toothed comb and meeting clients in Deutsche Bank, came back and was called into a meeting with the Big Boss.
Big Boss seemed to know immediately something was wrong. I tried to sound as professional as I could. I wanted to try different type of work, I said. He jumped on it, telling me he would have a word with the right guy and move me tomorrow, he made it so simple. I didn't have to explain anymore. He said he'd rather move me to a different team than have me leave the firm.
I had to see the Boss next. I didn't want to say anything then, just wanted to quietly move away. But what I didn't know was that between my email to the Big Boss in the morning and my second meeting with the Boss in the evening, the word had already spread: Office Roomie mentioned something was up when D asked her if I was ok, Big Boss barged into the Boss' room, asking if something in particular had happened, the Boss suddenly being super nice and offering to take some files away from me and lighten my workload. I blurted out that might be a good idea since I was going to move to another team. D and him did not look surprised. They already knew.
So there it is. I'm finally moving away from the Boss who had killed my drive to be a lawyer. Working with the Other Boss today made me feel like I wasn't a total moron bacause the Other Boss actually took the time to explain things to me. And as soon as he did, I knew how I needed to work. But I couldn't just work for the Other Boss because I'd still be on the same team as the Boss. D told me later he was proud of me and happy for me. I knew he knew where I was coming from. Afterall, he too had tendered his resignation about a month ago and was leaving for better places.
Hopefully, this is the right choice. I guess only time will tell.
1 comment:
Aw hugs babe, wish I could have been there for you! Chin up, you're at a better place now..I think you really needed this! You shouldnt have had to put up with all the crap from B. I'm proud of you for doing something about it! Hold up there, you'll be nicely recharged when you get back from your trip. That said, i CANT WAIT to have you here :)
Miss you.
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