After months of being strong and tough and practically forgetting that the whole business with RS ever happened, I gave in to the fleeting feelings I've been having lately where I wonder just how he's doing.

So I sent him a message on facebook.

Yea, I know it wasn't the most tactful way of getting in touch with someone I've had a romantic history with in the past but I was too cowardly to pick up the phone and give him a call. I guess it really only hit me when I realised that what A said was true, he had indeed removed me from his list of friends as he no longer appeared on mine while I was scrolling through to invite friends to an event. On that impulse I clicked over to the mail section and sent him, in retrospect, a rather lame message.

I read over it a few times before hitting send and I knew he wouldn't respond. But still, I wanted to try.

It's no surprise that he has not replied. But that doesn't help the fact that I still feel somewhat rejected.