the first week

i have been meaning to blog but simply just haven't had the time! the weekend went by FAAAAR too quickly and probably because i had to come in to work on saturday :( friday night was nice though, went out with the people from work for a drink at oosh and it was nice to just kick back after the week of work.

the first week has left me a little stressed out and feeling largely inadequate. it feels like everyone else is alot more on the ball than i am while i'm just flailing around, trying to keep up.

work aside, things are alright i guess. i feel bad for the boy, who had to deal with my ridiculous emotional break down. i think it was partly feulled by PMS but i had this crazy crying fit on saturday night following a 2 hour walk back to my house from his out of sheer stubborn-ness. he walked with me but didn't say a word and it scared the hell out of me that he wasn't talking. i felt so pathetic and worse still when i broke into tears. this wasn't me, i'm not a crier generally. and yet there i was, bawling my eyes out as if someone had died. he was lovely about it though, making me feel even more embarrassed that my weaknesses had to appear before him.

anyways, for now, i'm still at the office... looks like its gonna be a long day!

And so it begins...

Hee, I've never had phone sex before last night. It was strangely enjoyable, to say the least. Am seeing the Boy after work today and I can't wait ;)

Work's poured in today and there is much to get done. I feel as if I know nothing whatsoever and like some hopeless idiot. Ack! And to think its only my third day... am starting to wonder just what I've gotten myself into...

Last Day of Being a Kid

So tomorrow, I officially start work at my first grown up job. Its a weird feeling having reached this point. I worked hard to get to here but now that I am here, I wish I had a little more time to myself before I get thrown into the big bad world.

I know I'm probably making a bigger deal out of this than I should. If anything, I should consider myself lucky. I set my mind on being a lawyer and got into law school and managed to make it out the other side with a pretty respectible grade. Then I managed to get a job with the firm of my dreams when so many of my peers struggled to get a job in their fields. But here we are. Its the night before my first day.

I'm looking forward to it though, despite the nerves. Firstly, I've interned there before and so I guess I know what to expect. I've got a nice boss. Secondly, a couple of people from my class are there too so at least I'll know people there.

Anyways, I guess we'll see how it works out tomorrow. Wish me luck!